A Message To My Family

I begged you for help when I needed it the most. I had not passed urine or opened my bowels for seven months and each time I told you this you branded me a liar and had me put in the hell hole that is Goodmayes Hospital.

The infection that I had on my left ankle after surgery spread to my kidneys and my liver stopping me urinating and defecating.

I lost my appetite and my thirst and I lost the ability to sleep. I begged you to call for help but you told me to go away and you even hit and kicked me.

My kidneys and my liver had failed and I  could not eat or take in fluids. Doctors in Accident and Emergency decided that I was suffering from anxiety and sent me home with a severe infection and YOU were happy with this.

You were happy with me to be sent home from hospital with severe sepsis and with multiple organ failure threatening my life.

You fucking abandoned me when I was DYING. I will never forgive you for what you have done to me and when I die I will fucking haunt you.

I will also haunt that stupid doctor who told me I should “press on and drink more water” when I clearly was unable to and suffering from a massive fluid imbalance.

You had me put in a MENTAL hospital when I needed to be in a normal hospital getting specialist treatment for sepsis like IV antibiotics and IV fluids.

Queens sent me home with a severe infection and I hope you try and sue them although I doubt you will bother because you clearly do not give a shit. You didn’t give a shit when I begged you for help so I doubt you will give a shit now I am gone.


I hate that you left me to die of a severe infection that stopped me from urinating and passing stool.

Can you imagine how terrified I was knowing I was dying of severe sepsis from a massive bacterial infection? And being told that it was all in my head and I need to stop bugging you?

I am DEAD because of you! It’s all your fault and I will never forgive you in my death. Fuck you!

I am DEAD now and it’s all YOUR FAULT! I hope you are crying. You bloody well deserve to be.



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